#508 failure

great chunks of her planet fell and disintegrated

and i wasn't there

i lied to myself

it'll be ok

but while i was lying

the nucleus of her planet was exposed

and i wasn't there

there is no excusing this inaction

instead i locked it up in a safety deposit box

ignored by the newest part of my cranial development

and i check on it less and less

but sometimes

i walk to the bank, key in hand, and open the little door

alone, always alone

for grief is powerful and unpredictable

a dangerous combination

then i stuff it back in, lock the door, and leave the bank

i walk home

and i am quiet